it's a marriage! and i just still can't believe it!

well on july 1st i went to a friend wedding.

to say her as a best friend, we've been too long not contacting each other 

but to say her as a good friend, she is way more than that.

she is special, in case for everything,

been keeping my biggest secret the whole time,

been teaching me for being 'me'

been humble all this time,

been understanding and just staying calm through everything,

and been standing by my side on the darkest, the norak-est, the most stupid time in my life,

she is, indeed, a special friend

oh okay, tears just start dropping and i dont know why memories keep flashing by 

on the day i heard she's getting married, i was shock, literally a shock that cause me to contact her directly and ask, 'for real are you getting married this year?' it was 3 months prior.

seeing her as simple as she always be, i nearly forgot that she's getting married 

untill a day before her marriage, i stopped by her house and share stories to each other, sharing laughter and sharing miseries. i just can't believe it was a day before her marriage,

i attend her wedding, from the start,

one thing that i always envy her is that she never look nervous, she is a calming person, though she might be like a commoner lady-in-the-age which is bawel sometimes, but she always cool, she is really confident and ikhlas for everything.

untill the wedding end, i just cant believe that she was just married,

it's unbelievable, because i still can recall the day we queue for harry potter 1st movie, playing dirt together on fasting month, go to the swimming pool by foot, pressing people doorbell and run together, stalking our neighborhood crush, get to taraweh together......

it was more than 6 years ago, it was more than 8 years ago,

i feel a bit empty seeing her wedding and just get involved in the last minute preparations,

skip some time on her precious time,

been neglecting to contact her,

forgot to give her souvenir from everywhere

those guilt that mixed with a happiness that she somehow get married to a nice man *which we start to know together, and i was there from the very beginning on their relation*  have me feel.... can you know what is the best word to explain what i feel? i feel happy but i also feel guilty.

anyway, though i just cant believe that she's married, i really want to wish her a happy and forever long lasting marriage. Wish they could also have a very nice family, get to top together and forever be happy :D